green

iuj in green, may 17, 2005

green na liwat it iuj. baga na hin pinas. ayos gud it Ginoo, gin-andam na ako pag-uli. kunbaga, transition na ha ak it pagchange han color han paligid. ha pinas man gud, pirme green ha bug-os nga tuig.

presko it green nga color. pero ha iba, bastos daw ini nga color. ambot kon kay ano. pakiana ko la, kay ano nga green man it grass?

pero balitaw, di na gud la maiha, mauli na ako. excited gad kay back to where i belong naman liwat ako. mahusay gad udog it pinas, it sistema la, masumo. bisan ha ofis ko, waray naman la kadigni-dignidad, bagan di kami mga professional. puros la tsismis, pandaot hit igkasi ngan kon ano ano pa nga mga hungkag nga istorya. yana kono adto na hira ha garahian na-ofis kay nasunog man gud it amon opisina last december. waray daw pundo pagconstruct hit bag-o nga building. rason ba ito para magin garahian na it am workplace? salit, it am output, kon may output man, baga liwat tambutso it quality. kon magrent la anay hin workplace? di daw pwede kay bangin igreclaim han leyte province an area. maiha naman gud ito nga gincontest han provincial government an ownership. bati ko, ginbabawi han leyte province an lugar. dire liwat nasugot it ak ofis kay maiha na daw hira dida. baga hira mga bata nga nag aaway hit usa nga candy. kunbaga, naimagine ko, kon yana nga aga magrelocate ak ofis, pagkagab-i, sekretohon dayon nga kuhaon han leyte province an lugar. hahaha mas maupay pa an kinder ha alpha-omega learning center kay maaram mag istorya hin tuhay parti hit ira mga balon. kon nag aagaw-agaway man hira hit ira balon, at least maintindihan kay mga bata hira. hay buhay.

sige la, damoon ko nala pagpicture hit lugar didi ha japan. kon masumo man ako ha pinas, kitaon ko nala ini nga mga pictures. ngan ipaawa hit ak mga kaopisina. kitaon ta la kon dire hira mag-green with envy.

paglubog ng araw

urasa sunset, april 2005

nagtagalog hi gary, nagtagalog hi tish. puros ghap tagalog akon ginbasa knina nga blog. yana, tagalog nala lwat akon entry. pero usa ini nga kanta nga paborito ko since college. paborito namon nga magsarangkay. sista la an accompaniment, risyo na amon kinabuhi hadto. meaningful ini nga kanta. timely an message. tupang ligaw an title. kanta ni rez valdez.

malapit na namang lumubog ang araw
dilim ng gabi'y darating na naman
sa paghimlay mo isip mo'y naglalakbay
nakatanaw sa kawalan.

lumipas na naman ang isang araw sa buhay
takbo ng buhay mo'y di mo namamalayan
sa bawat sandaling darating at papanaw
buhay mo'y tila parang kulang.

kayamanan at lahat ng kalayawan
wala pala itong kabuluhan
kung si Kristo ay wala pa sa iyong buhay
para kang isang tupang ligaw.

succession

in kokusai chuo, may 17, 2005


some thoughts before i retire.

for every a 1, there's always a 2, then a 3, so on. from temporal, there is a succession of eternal; from finite to infinity.

r.w. emerson says it better: "God had infinite time to give us; but how did He give it? in one immense tract of lazy millineums? no, He cut it up into a neat succession of new mornings."

for every yesterday, there's always a new morning. then another morning. and then another.

lessons from the river

river in urasa, may 17, 2005

• quoted: a river would lose its song if you remove its rocks
• i couldn't have this entry had i cooked my lunch at 11am (it's now 12:18, was about to eat when i realized my rice cooker has no cooked rice)
• had it not for my class at 1pm today, my writing gana would not have worked (so i have to blog fast, choose what kind of pix to post in split seconds, and layout with one eye)
• river is not only of stones, nor only of water; it must be both; same with happiness
• natural noise produced by rushing water against the stones is soothing and comforting than the noise pollution i heard from rock bands, cars, and fighting planes
• if the flow of the water is blocked by the stones, it sings
• if the flow of the water is blocked by the stones, it detours
• the rushing river ends in the wide ocean
• the rushing river surely starts from somewhere else
• the water flow is volume, but it is never consumed
• it is only dried up when man starts taking care of it
• after this blog, rice is also cooked

wisdom

maple leaves in spring, may 14, 2005, shiozawa parking area

most of us have been into fiery trials. some understand why it does happen to them, but most, if not all, question the wisdom behind this happening. for others, it is an awakening, an eye opener; for some, it is unfair, an incident beyond logic.

here is one guy whose suffering is not uncommon to most of us. job, a familiar character in the old testament, was hit by his enemy to the bone. his children were struck by a calamity and died in the same day, his property was ruined, he got boils all over, he was cursed by his wife, and to top it all, these incidents were approved by a God, his Creator, whom he feared and trusted all his life. it all happened albeit job was described as an upright and blameless man.

yet in all these, job searched for wisdom. his declaration of what wisdom is and the value of it speaks greatly of what we perhaps are looking for these days. i read these words yesterday in job 28.

12 "But where can wisdom be found?
Where does understanding dwell?

13 Man does not comprehend its worth;
it cannot be found in the land of the living.

14 The deep says, 'It is not in me';
the sea says, 'It is not with me.'

15 It cannot be bought with the finest gold,
nor can its price be weighed in silver.

16 It cannot be bought with the gold of Ophir,
with precious onyx or sapphires.

17 Neither gold nor crystal can compare with it,
nor can it be had for jewels of gold.

18 Coral and jasper are not worthy of mention;
the price of wisdom is beyond rubies.

19 The topaz of Cush cannot compare with it;
it cannot be bought with pure gold.

20 "Where then does wisdom come from?
Where does understanding dwell?

21 It is hidden from the eyes of every living thing,
concealed even from the birds of the air.

22 Destruction and Death say,
'Only a rumor of it has reached our ears.'

23 God understands the way to it
and he alone knows where it dwells,

24 for he views the ends of the earth
and sees everything under the heavens.

25 When he established the force of the wind
and measured out the waters,

26 when he made a decree for the rain
and a path for the thunderstorm,

27 then he looked at wisdom and appraised it;
he confirmed it and tested it.

28 And he said to man,
'The fear of the Lord—that is wisdom,
and to shun evil is understanding.' "

i learned something from job yesterday.